In all honesty, I don’t see much point in keeping Helena around anymore.
No one talks to her.
Even you new people that followed her. One person sent a ‘<3 .U.’ anon and well, that was it. Like, I appreciate it but…just following a person and then never talking to them isn’t really going to make them feel better.
This blog has 110 followers. You know how many people talk to her?
And that’s because I go to them first or bother them about it.
I’m tired of making all of the effort. I’m tired of people misunderstanding her and harassing her, and just being outright mean.
Yeah, I get that everything she says sounds sexual. THAT’S THE POINT. Does it mean she wants to jump your character’s bones? NO. She means everything she says literally. Helena is a cannibal. When she says she wants to taste you, or give you a ‘good suck’, she means she wants to eat you or drink some of your blood.
I thought it would be fun to write her out that way, but when I have her give someone a fucking hug and I suddenly get messages about how she’s a slut, it just makes me not want to play her anymore.
No one ever comes to her to talk to her. And I mean no one.
Do you know how tiring it is to have to go up to people every single time you want to start a conversation? Do you know what that feels like? It feels like you’re not worth people’s time.
So I’m just kinda…done.
I’m not trying to call out for attention. I Don’t want to be that attention whore that’s like: Oh, talk to me or I’m gonna kill myself/my character.
I honestly don’t think I can play Helena anymore under these circumstances.
So those of you that followed her last night, thank you, but you can unfollow her if you’d like.
Within the next few days, I’ll be writing up her death and pretty much leaving her blog forever.